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My True Love Gave to Me… A Sense of Perspective

It’s been a couple of months since I last blogged, this is simply unacceptable. So here’s a kind of Christmas-themed entry.

First things first, as this is a Christmas post I should get one thing straight. If you are the kind of person who calls it “Xmas” I will hunt you down and slap you across the face with some crusty underwear. It’s not that I’m religious, it just grates with me. It’s a nonsensical abbreviation. Is it “ex-mas” or is it “cross-mas”? Neither makes any sense. Is it some kind of take on the crucifix? I doubt whoever came up with it is that clever, however if they are then for some reason I don’t think it’s entirely appropriate to commemorate someone’s birth by removing their name and replacing it with the instrument of their death. Call me old-fashioned. Anyway, moving on…

So last weekend my emotions got the better of me briefly. I was really down because this will be the first time in my life that I have not spent Christmas with my family. In the past few years our routine on Christmas Day was fine-tuned and something I looked forward to immensely. I would spend all morning with my girlfriend, exchanging gifts et cetera, then she would have dinner with her family while I did the rounds with mine before going to my dad’s with my brother for dinner. Once there we would head to the pub while dinner was cooking (misogyny is rife in our households!), have a few pints, laugh and reminisce over a game of pool. We would return and have the best damn Christmas dinner with ham that I walk through fire for and then proceed to get quite drunk while playing poker or darts. My dad would bring out his annual tradition of a new drink to try (previous entries being tequila from Tijuana, Aquavit, Grappa and something from Latvia which we couldn’t pronounce but called “breakdancing fluid”) and we’d get very merry before staggering home and spending the night with girlfriends. It may not sound like much but I’m a family boy and it meant the world to me.

I am a big kid at Christmas, I still get infected by the season and love everything about it. Yes the presents are nice, but mostly it’s the time spent with loved ones, the laughs had and the memories shared. The prospect of not being able to do that this year really got to me. After I confided in Sarah she made me realise a few things. I hadn’t grown up, for one. That Christmas routine is for either a teenager or a bachelor, not someone in a committed relationship. And while I will definitely still miss my family, I will be spending it with my new family – Sarah and Ashton – and that excites me a lot. I am truly in love with them both and I honestly cannot think of a better way to spend it than with them. Plus this year I’m not the kid, the actual child is. I cannot wait to see how Christmas is for him, he’ll bring out the inner child in both Sarah and myself as he gleefully takes the whole thing in after Santa’s been. We’ll be creating new routines and new memories from 2010 onwards and I look forward to them more than I ever have anything else.

Sarah made me realise that things change, not always for the worse. The whole of this year has marked a big change in me and Christmas will be the final note on me finally (hopefully) growing up. Though maybe not completely…



Merry Christmas to you all and a happy New Year.

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  1. edge_of_the_map
    December 23, 2010 at 7:47 pm

    I hope you all have a brilliant Christmas, and that the New Year brings everything you deserve. You are due a bit of good fortune.
    In your low moments, please remember this: you are important to everyone on Twitter. You represent our right to have weird thoughts and share them with strangers. You must win, and I will keep throwing money at you until you do.

  2. Rogerborg
    December 23, 2010 at 8:13 pm

    Xmas is pronounced “Zodmass”. At least in
    my household.

  3. December 23, 2010 at 8:17 pm

    You have it bad and it’s wonderful to read. Good man. and
    Merry Christmas to you all.

  4. December 23, 2010 at 8:17 pm

    After this year, it’s brilliant to see you’re still going
    with your head up high, Paul. Have a wonderful christmas with your
    new family. And i’m sure Ashton will turn around and tell you to
    grow up a few times ;). Merry Christmas to the three of you! You
    wonderful persons. – Ravenatic

  5. Jehefinner
    December 23, 2010 at 9:16 pm

    It’s funny, when I read your description of your “old”
    Christmas my first thought was “why is it not spent with your
    girlfriend, both of you visiting families, but being together?” But
    I see that Sarah has pointed out how bizarre that was, so I don’t
    need too. I hope you find a new Christmas tradition, one that
    embraces your family and brings you a new kind of celebration, and
    leads you into a new year where things go from better to brilliant.

  6. CrazyColours
    December 24, 2010 at 9:55 am

    Nice post! Aww… I love you. xxx

  7. JimboBrennan
    December 24, 2010 at 1:55 pm

    touching stuff dude, you’ve got a fantastic woman who
    obviously thinks the world of you, and a mini genius (figured out
    that peeling stickers off the rubik’s cube thing about 15 years
    before me!!) and despite all the shit that’s happened, you’re
    together for xmas (sorry, couldn’t resist!) which is more than some
    people can say, and next year is going to be fantastic – first year
    of the rest of your life!

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